BIRDGIRLS CAN FLY

You daydream sometimes right? And most of the time for a normal person daydreaming is spontaneous and uncontrollable; so for me, its not! I kinda learned how to seperate myself from the reality; even for a while. Reality bent...to expose the surreal... Okay! so my universe is something that is created out of the books ive read through my entire life, each book i read and will read has something to add to this universe. Those times that i start daydreaming, i show up in this universe. Its not a story actually its a collective work of the books. Thats the point! i made it real... i mean its another reality... The mind is a very real thing...so why shouldn't its creations be real too? Its not a dream world or something that i jump on the hills over the clouds... its something real that i have issues, dramas and stuff as well... so the idea of such an alternative world that i've created keeps me sane; saves me from the reality as we know it. I AM CONFUSED!! Confusion is the source, if you know what i mean... No! how can the things you dont even know confuse you? What confuses you is the things you "know". Have you ever heard about this book of Paulo Coelho, "the witch of portobello"? Ok, so im not gonna tell you the story but the point of the book is that the creation of the world and environment is a work of confusion... theoretically if you dance out of rythm with very straight rythm, you'll find the god... Sorry for bugging you with my nonsense dreams... well i wish people around me would admire it too cuz they think im a selfish person leaving so much time to myself... they think i dont care about them because i spend alot of time in my room alone writing and thinking and daydreaming and stuff. I dont blame them; i mean everyone has a truth and reason in thier own ways so according to them im a nerd and whatsoever... Ima tell you another story next time we talk if we ever talk again..;)