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What kind of “the village” would you like to live in?

All of the ideologies, in this world, are trying to reach a high level of human pleasure in a societal level, arent they?

The very last movie I’ve watched was “The Village” from Shyamalan which depicts the tale of an isolated town confronting the astonishing truth that lies just outside its borders. At first glance, this village seems picture perfect, but this close-knit community lives with the frightening knowledge that creatures reside in the surrounding woods. The evil and foreboding force is so unnerving that none dare venture beyond the borders of the village and into the woods. But when curious, headstrong Lucius Hunt plans to step beyond the boundaries of the town and into the unknown, his bold move threatens to forever change the future of the village[i]

The social structuralization of this little village is based on the innocence and happiness of the people, living in a commune, common propertied way, without economy as we know it. As far as I understood from the movie there are basic institutions that would corrupt the human mind and empower the ambition of racing and even killing which are economy, and basically monetary institutions. As long as the social structure provides the happiness and satisfaction to the people of the village, they would not be in need of an exchange such as money. As an unavoidable feature of human kind, death becomes normalized and people dont even try to find medicines, though the attempts are de-motivated by the fear of evil creatures, created by the elders and founders of the village. The unnatural fears are maybe the most dangerous ones that people are the most afraid of, most trying not to break the rules to avoid the danger.  Also I didn’t realised any obvious religious affairs in the movie such as rituels or so…(Perhaps, religion itself, releases the most ancient human ambition to kill to execute the word of “God” yet in the village there is no other world to spread any kind of belief)[ii]

Above anything, this movie left me with dilemmas such as society vs individualism, social pattern vs freedom, happiness of all ?/= happiness of one, happiness vs individual ambitions… the idea for the “elders” to build such a social system was their suffering out of miserable, anguished experiences that they experienced in the order of the modern capitalist/ambitious/relentless world. Trying to create a society where noone is envying others properties yet those properties are pre-provided and shared commonly; a society where love is sacred and free from prejudices, a society where women are included into the daily production and consumption as men equally though still a girl has to ask her father for the permisson for her love. People are dying because of even the simpliest diseases but just to keep the order stil and stable, elders could face with the fact of deaths of their beloveds. Strangely, at the end of the movie, this guy who helped the girl without questioning her, is leading you this question: “ this sort of societies would let anyone else to get in?”

The state of innocence and love and order is seemed to be the most desired human ambition throughout the entire history which led and is leading to warfare and carnage and destruction of the nature itself by the technology. All the ideologies in the world that is governing or governed a state and a public has/had to create some kind of fear towards others to keep themselves as one nation, one ideology, one religion etc… every country/ideology/religion as defined has a natural enemy such as neighbour states, anti ideologies or atheism; so in this movie, a bunch of people created this kind of fear and founded a minimal society yet a peaceful one. The color red became a symbol for crime, blood and human ambition which is banned. The colour yellow would be the symbol for innocence and peace and obedience to those who are wise and elder. Putting a colour on a piece of cloth and giving its meaning makes it a flag and a flag makes people, public,nation whatsoever. Basicly what you see in the movie is nothing different than the creation of societies as we know them through the history of humanity. Yet there are stil a couple of questions left: Can we make a society in a fearless way? Do we need to have enemies in order to understand the goodness and innocence?

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[i] http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0368447/plotsummary

[ii] "Religion, which should most distinguish us from the beasts, and ought most particularly elevate us, as rational creatures, above brutes, is that wherein men often appear most irrational, and more senseless than beasts." john locke

Avatar'ı izleyince ne mi düşündüm? Anlatayım..

Amerikalı bir arkadaşımla bu film üzerine uzun uzun tartıştık...
Daha öncesinde film hakkında yapılan yorumlardan okuduğum kadarıyla; arkadaşıma aslında bu filmin Amerikan emperyalizmi ve sonunun 20. yy da geldiğini sandığımız kolonizmin birebir göstergesi olduğunu; aslında şimdiye kadar yapılan bütün Hollywood ürünü Vietnam, 2. dünya savaşı, Japonya,Irak vs savaşları konulu filmlerin bu emperyalizmin ürünü olduğunu, bunu bir şekilde meşrulaştırdığını; kahraman amerikan askerinin çilesini gözler önüne sererek ajitasyona dayanan amerikan milliyetçilik (aslında daha kendi içindeki "çokkültürcü demokrasi" "sorununu" çözememiş amerikan milliyetçiliği) politikası sürdürdüğünü iddia etmiştim. Taki son derecede müthiş bir teknoloji ürünü olan ve belki de sinemada yapay çekimlerin modern prototipi olacak olan bu filmi izleyinceye kadar...
Yapılan yorumlardan ve izlenimlerimden yola çıkarak; "kaybeden gök insanları"nın ( atom bombası da havadan atılmamış mıydı oysa ki...), son derecede otantik, egzotik, sıradışı, bilinmeyen ve (bilinmemesinden dolayı) bir o kadar korkutucu olan bir gezegendeki madenin peşine düşmesini, yerel halkın da medeniyet- eğitim- ahlak- "insaniyet" dışı olmalarından ileri gelen "terörizm"inin; emperyal- kapitalist- kolonist güçlere karşı kazandığı zafer anlatılmakta bu filmde...ironik olan ise zaferin yine bir amerikan 'kahraman' askeri tarafından kazanılması...son birkaç onyıldaki Amerikan "demokrasi" savaşlarına baktığımızda da aslında aynı manzarayı görmüyor muyuz? Afganistan ve Irak'taki savaşın aslında amerikan "milleti" değil de birkaç büyük şirketin (American Petroleum Company başta olmak üzere..) tekelinde yer alması ne garip!
Demokrasinin ücretini petrol ve maden olarak alan Amerikan hükümetleri (ki bu hükümetlerin petrol şirketleri ile 1. 2. 3. dereceden akrabai ilişkileri bulunmakta..bkz Bush Family) "teröre terör ile karşılık vermekte" ve zamanın birkaç en büyük yapay insanlik dramını yaratmakta..
Pekala yukarıda anlatılanların hepsi benim bu çok yakın Amerikalı arkadaşıma iddia ettiğim fikirlerdi. Peki onun buna cevabı ne oldu?... İşte orası biraz ironik...kendi yorumu; hollywood film endüstrisinin apolitizm politikasından başka bir amacı olmaması ve çekilen bütün filmlerin tek amacının "entertainment" (eğlenti) olduğu , zaten filmi izleyen hiçbir Amerikan vatandaşının da filme bu gözle bakamayacağı, ilgilenilen tek unsurun savaş sahneleri ve ileri teknoloji kullanımının olduğu; filmi yazan yöneten her kimsenin böyle bir amacının olmaması ve hatta bunun farkında bile olmadıkları yönünde idi.İşte bu nedenle arkadaşım, filme karşı yapılan bu yorumların aslında biraz acımasız olduğu, Hollywood'u pek fazla ciddiye almamak gerektiğini savunmakta...
"Kitlesel apolitikleşrimenin" yeni bir politik altyapısını hazırlayan Amerikan idealizmi, insanlar ile politik aktivizm arasına medya perdesini germekte ve aslında insanlar bu perdenin arka tarafından yanan ışığın yarattığı gölgelere karşı Amerikan aktvizmi sürdürmekte...peki diğer taraftan; bu insanlar kendi hükümetlerinin ve insanlarının (askerlerinin) yarattığı acıdan zevk (eğlenti) mi almakta?
Velhasıl-ı kelam Irak'ı ve Afganistan'ı Amerika'dan kurtaracak olan kahraman Amerikan askerlerinin yolunu gözlemekteyim....hayrola..

BIRDGIRLS CAN FLY

You daydream sometimes right? And most of the time for a normal person daydreaming is spontaneous and uncontrollable; so for me, its not! I kinda learned how to seperate myself from the reality; even for a while. Reality bent...to expose the surreal... Okay! so my universe is something that is created out of the books ive read through my entire life, each book i read and will read has something to add to this universe. Those times that i start daydreaming, i show up in this universe. Its not a story actually its a collective work of the books. Thats the point! i made it real... i mean its another reality... The mind is a very real thing...so why shouldn't its creations be real too? Its not a dream world or something that i jump on the hills over the clouds... its something real that i have issues, dramas and stuff as well... so the idea of such an alternative world that i've created keeps me sane; saves me from the reality as we know it. I AM CONFUSED!! Confusion is the source, if you know what i mean... No! how can the things you dont even know confuse you? What confuses you is the things you "know". Have you ever heard about this book of Paulo Coelho, "the witch of portobello"? Ok, so im not gonna tell you the story but the point of the book is that the creation of the world and environment is a work of confusion... theoretically if you dance out of rythm with very straight rythm, you'll find the god... Sorry for bugging you with my nonsense dreams... well i wish people around me would admire it too cuz they think im a selfish person leaving so much time to myself... they think i dont care about them because i spend alot of time in my room alone writing and thinking and daydreaming and stuff. I dont blame them; i mean everyone has a truth and reason in thier own ways so according to them im a nerd and whatsoever... Ima tell you another story next time we talk if we ever talk again..;)

• Equinox Project ⇒ The virtue of Feeling and Touching ⇒ Wisdom or Helplessness? 21st March and 23rd September are periods of time that night and day are equal to each other, another words equinox. Night and day, equality of darkness and daylight meant that visible and invisible world could equal to each other for us.

Ekinoks Projesi // Dokunmanın ve Duyumsamanın Erdemi from Ekinoks Projesi on Vimeo.

boş beleş konuşmalar...

Hayatımın ilk 18 milliyetçi yılından sonra sonunda zihniyetimi serbest bırakıp dünyayı keşfetmesine izin verdim ve ruhumu biraz daha özgürleştirdim. Artık dış mihraklardan gelebilecek her türlü kışkırtmalara, beyin yıkamalara, gönül kaptırmalara, akıl çelinimlerine açıktım ve savunmasız bir halde kendime bir yol çizdim. Artık vatansız, milliyetsiz, ve milliyetsizliğimden ileri gelen "haysiyetsizliğim" ile huzur içinde yaşayabilecektim bu şehirde... Zira, aydınlanmam, gerçeklerle devlet idealleri arasındaki fark beynimde karıncalanmalara neden olmakta, oturduğum yerden beni rahatsız etmekte...Biraz klişe biraz da kuşbakışı ile...Osmanlı'nın bir salgın haline gelen yayılması..Ermeni tehciri..TCnin uluslaşma macerası..Rum mübadelesi..65 olayları..Dersim katliamı..Hrant Dink..Kürtten ziyade "Türk" olayları..ve aklıma gelemeyen nicesi..... Belki her alanda aydınlanabilirim ancak insanları bu kadar kör edebilen, insanlıklarından çıkaran, "tanrı vergisi" mantıklarının, düşünebilen benliklerinin ne olup da kaybolduğunu bir türlü anlayamamayacağım, anlamak istemeyeceğim galiba. Benim yaşadığım bu anlık dönüşümün başkaları için neden bu kadar zor olması gerektiği bir muamma içerimde.. Bunları şov yapmak, "bakın ben ne kadar mantıklı düşünüyorum", "aslında gerçekler gerçek değil bakın her şey farklı.." demek değil amacım ki bunları hitap edeceğim herkes bilmekte sanırsam..ancak kafamı kurcalayan sorun şu ki; son zamanlarda farkındalığımın artması bana pek yaramadı ve bunca acının yaşandığı bu ülke bana batmaya, yaşanılası bir yer olamamaya başladı..Özellikle İstanbul! biraz saçma olacak ancak bazen "keşke şu 'insanlar' beni de sürse şuralardan" diyesim geliyor, belki de buraları özlemenin vereceği acı, farkindalığımdan ileri gelen, burada yaşamanın verdiği acıdan daha katlanılası olacaktır...

I FOUND A NEW PATH!

Four years, ups and downs of wonderment and disappointment; it was everythng i did ever hope for but yeah sometimes you are simply unlucky to get it, now i learned how to bear it. These are my dreams and i'll keep holding them and never let go as long as i exist. I have one more year to sacrifice in my life and thats gonna be it! I will give one more chance to my being and if it doesnt work again then ima be awesome! Countless hours of learning more and countless hours of knowing less, now i see that life directs you whereever it wants but the thing that i should do is to keep dreaming, dreaming of becoming one..

Dancing is my late discovered passion i shall admit. I know i dont have a background except dancing folk for 2 years but i stil have that little light in me that makes me believe that if try hard i could get deep in this life and success. Being on the stages is not a matter of fame or something but its a matter of finding your inner demons and angels there. i found my demons and angels there two years ago and compelled them to stay inside, now ima release them out so i can show my inner fights to people by dancing on the stage under black lights...
I used to have big dreams..dreams of a fanciful life, money, luxury, family, respect, and happiness...now i have only happiness to dream of! this time ill take it slow because im just an ordinary person now that i see it; as opposite to my parents i dont know which way to go so maybe i should take it slow...And now i am ready to give what it takes and im gonna be alone this time.. This time i will compete with myself...

finding neverland...

it needs to get started form some certain point though..like right here, right now! need to be brave and crazy..eternity lays down in front of me and it is the time for leaving as far as im able to go .. even without thinking where and how! without knowing who you are gonna meet...a new season comes upon me as you can feel it..something has to change..yeah you feel and foreseen these kinda stuff sometimes without knowing how.. then everything changes instantly and you are not capable of understanding it how...and also you change as well...you find yourself while you are searching for the "new". something "new" that you dont even know anything about.. the only thing you know is that you want "to be happy". you find yourself while you are searching for the "happiness". the thing teasing you, is not that or this play of the other person but the play of that person which is playing for "you". it starts with a little glance, light upon you..his/her smile, the little tatoo on the left wrist, long fingers and indeed the chicness. you get distracted or you point allof your attention on him/her..something has changed, you feel it! you are a perfectionist! " i got it at the first sight!", "his/her moves tell everything about him/her" that you keep saying...you smile skittishly, not able to say anything. as the season changes you only want to get the utmost enjoyement out of this change... "what a beautiful thing the happiness is" that you think of.. well everybody loves a happy ending!

flowing

 i dont know anything about you but ive decided to be lucid and flow like water, meeting with other water flows and getting bigger and bigger and wave and owerflow..i've been thniking alot lately and getting over the harsh times more easily..Am i alone in the crowd, with my friends, with my lovers? i've been wounded spiritually 2 years ago...i never shut up but go on singing, living...but im making short sentences anymore, all i hate and all i love are with me? i accepted everything the way they are, im going for tomorrows...im looking at the mirror everynight and im ok but tired a bit...i thank to everyone in my life and everything ive lived..im becoming more mature with you.

TOY...

hmmm... yeah.. everything is in our hands like we can do everything we want..but we always miss the chances because of pure cowardice and this is a well known truth. but there is something to be curious about: "of what people are afraid most?"... i guess, above all the things, we are mostly afraid of getting a new step in life, saying something new to our very own self... but i guess i am talking too much idly and thats why i cant find anytime to do something else. no wait! not like that! it should have been said like this: "im talking idly because i have nothing to do"..i learned how to talk nonsense by laying on my bed at the corner of my room and thinking foolishly for the last couple of months. so why am i leaving now? like i am able to leave like this? is my behaviour serious? NOT AT ALL! that is to say im consoling myself with a foolish dream. a toy...yes..i guess its a toy...

its a mad world! and im sucking the madness in...

for some of us, its so different that what we have and what we want from this life. we are bounded by other peoples boundries...you want to love somebody, but that somebody lives far far away. he says he'll never forget you but what if you want to forget him? is it you who make this world so big that you cant reach who you want to or the world is so crowded that you cant find a way to who you love?

you lie to yourself.you like to be lied to because its easier to live with lies that keeps you up with the life.. no! you are not real! and you cant save yourself, you dont know how to tread yourself, never was and never will be...

you are all in this circle or out but what if your head is out while your body in? you only console yourself with the songs you are listening to now. you make silly, utopic decisions, you think you are strong enough to achieve them...no, you are a liar! you only can trick yourself! those dreams are lies, those decisions are fake..here another song: are you there? are you watching me? they say you are here every moment..stay here...why is it so hard? why dont you just take me? before you fade completely!

no, you are not even trying to come to a conclusion so dont do it! because they are fake...just consoling yourself

what you should do is to lie to yourself that you are strong like you have to be..you can do whatever you want, like you need to..you can change the facts, you can change yourself like ur changing clothes, can you change this lie?

before believing in yourself you believe in god..why? because you are weak...those lies are becoming your god! lol.. dont mind yourself! you are just bulshiting, rubbishing this world, you are mocking on yourself...you are the devil! you are poisoning your soul by those foolish dreamsand lies and people around you...

to be honest...you dont really care! you've seen it all, you had the best dreams, best lives...alright its another morning after a sleepless night again and you are thinking again as noone does, as noone is capable of..you keep thinking on your evil plans through the nights, you are dreaming evil and all those other good creatures are preventing your evil plans and dreams to come true...as long as those good creatures continue existing on earth you are gonna fail...

you should go slowly because they fall behind you they cant catch you...time after time...

all those infatuations, passions you have dont even exist in reality. you create such a world to yourself that you cant get out of it anymore, you got stuck in it!

confusion will be your end..and you'll be crying again and again till those tears are not gonna be teared out of lies..

dont sleep! drink coffee light a cigarette and continue lying because when you fell asleep you woke up into the reality in your dreams..keep struggling on and on till you feed your hunger..you will never be strong or good enough to rise above. you are gonna stay where you are right now and continue lying a.k.a dreaming...

yeah! everything is in your hands like you can do whatever you like to do, but you always miss the chances because of pure cowardice and this is a well known truth! no! wait...im not gonna direct you, go on being a coward, whatever you like to be...but ı guess you are talking too much idly thats why you cant find anytime to do something else...no! wait...it should have been said like this: "I" am thinking idly because "I" have nothing to do..."I" learned how to talk nonsense by laying on "my" bed at the corner of "my" room for the last a couple of months, thinking foolishly..

so why am "I" leaving now? like "I" am able to leave like this..is "my" attitude serious? no..not at all!that is to say "I" a consoling "myself" with an evil dream...

a toy..yes..a toy!